perhaps.

When you love something so much.
You'll sacrifice anything .

Athletics is part of my life since standard 3. Basically its already 7 years. And now I've stopped training for 2 months plus ? due to my awful injury. I really hope it recovers. All my dreams will be shattered if it doesnt recover. :( the chance for me to hurdle again ? i dont know. I can't even finish a full training. I'm having this injury for 2 months plus, and instead of getting better, it got worse, and I really dont know what to do. I don't know how to explain this kind of feeling. It's really frustrating, is like you're not studying for 2 months . Is like 2 months without your boyfriend. I dont know where to hide my sadness and angers now. I've never had this feeling before, it pisses me off. I somehow felt so jealous of people with healthy backs, some of them played real crazy and my heart will just say. " please take care of your back, dont be like me ". and the training ones will be " train hard when you have the chance to"and now i dont have the chance. I may look like im fine. But im not. So please take care of your back.

I really miss training. I miss being tired, I miss doing pyramid, I miss doing diagonal.
you all wont know how i feel.
its really pain inside.